Childhood-Story:
1944 1st grade Mrs. Marchand
Perfect rows. Facing teacher, I'm far right in back.
Raise my hand to go to the bathroom. "Not now, Billy".
Three more times, "Not now, Billy !""Not Now, Billy !!""NOT NOW, BILLY !!!"
I feel the warm running over my legs. Wet pants. Big puddle.
I leave the room.. Can't remember coming back.
Bill Dane
I read Janet's "Staircase of Roots" again
suspended reality and wrote this:
She greets Ess, "Sweetheart"all the time
I feel a mixed thing
jealous..good . fun
"Sweetheart", I text Nancy
why not sooner
Standing right here with Her
"Sweetheart", I try out loud
once . in fun
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1950s "Don't pooh-pooh The Groo"From the daily back n forth of our '50s 'crew'.
I don't remember anyone ever identifying"The Groo".
Bill Dane
I hear:
... you're gonna need a bucket an' a mop ...
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1947
Donnie Goode eats worms.
Once, I ask him to do it.
He does. . I'm heart-sick. . Never again.
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1949 "The Spanking"
Can't remember what I did.
He tells me to lie on my bed.
Picks the bench up over his head.
Hits me three times on my butt.
I call him a bastard and try squeezing-hard not to cry.
Bill Dane
Today is Monday, September 29, 2009
Nick and I really ''finished'' the Website
Let down comin' ?!.
We'll just ease on down the line . . .
and go tweak it again
Bill Dane
I hear:
Your group could start on the top floor
and my group could start on the bottom, ..or. ...
Bill Dane
Vietnam and into our future:
No Draft = More Wars.
Ironic.
Norman Mailer knew it then !
Bill Dane
I hear:... He thought it was a little bit mo' down than it was ...
Bill Dane
I hear:
You're makin' me hit people with this
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1940s SilverPines Camp and Sleep-Overs
It's not fun if you wet your bed.
Camp, at night and in the morning, goes real badly.

Cabin-Buddy. Heine Kuechler's compassion saves two summers:
"Don't worry, Billy.. We'll just hang it up to dry"
And we hang it up a lot.
In 7th grade I stay awake all night at Cutler's to escape the demon.
The father leaves our house - the demon goes with.
Bill Dane
I hear:
... Pretty soon there 'r frogs everywhere ...
Bill Dane
Childhood-Story:
1945 Frankie's Accident
I'm playing in the backyard.
Frank is 5, takes my bike and rides off around the corner.
People are yelling and hollering.
We run down the block to find him lying in the street.
All our neighbors are there.
My father screams at me , "Go home Billy. Go home. Get out of here."
Two weeks later Frank comes out of the coma.
I teach him how to walk and talk again.
I don't remember the father being there.
Bill Dane