+- 2009, college and care.
I'm suffering from "Early Onset Parsimony", see:
"Contagious ! The Common Man's College Loan & Health Care Syndromes, Etc !"
Not covered by this criminal nation's non systems for citizen care.
Puke at will !

I hear:
... sex ? Are you sure they live like that ?
Maybe most people do ...

Childhood-Story:
1949-50 two, six week summers at Silver Pines Camp, 30 miles east of Redding
First summer I don't pay much attention to the Silver Belt Buckle competition.
We collect points for every kind of 'sporting' event over the summer.
We fish, swim, shoot, horse, clean, and big-points! = find an Indian Arrowhead.
Second summer,
I know I can win it if I find an arrowhead in the final days - our totals are posted.
There's a small small lake half a mile over the hill. I get permission to hike over.
Lost Lake is 100 yards long rock-stone shore the length - other side, banks.
I .hands-n-knees. back-n-forth . for three hot-dry hours.
This feeling of "I'm-gonna-find-it" has been with me since '38. I know it well.
Just have to keep on Truckin'.
Hour number four I find my no-doubt Indian Arrowhead.
Two and a half inches, brown-gray, shallow-notched-sculpted to it's point.

Two times I lie face down and cry out loud at my camp:
Alone in the woods, stick-leader-fly-cool-mossy-creekside - my first fish
Alone in the rocks and stones with the Arrowhead

Walked and hunted for three hours today
Not one single picture taken
This has happened before
Like two days ago
It's always exercise

I hear:
... She's ballin' him right now ...

I hear:
... four years ago I woulda gone back and burned the house down.
Not anymore.

APPROPRIATION​ - my Buddy !
I know people who Wikipedia: appropriation

I hear:
Please don't touch. He is our friend.

I hear:
... if you act right now ...

Robbe-Grillet, Duras, Beckett,
"Women & Fiction" Anthology,​ Boll, Pancake, Michaels, Banks, Et Al !
Love 'em - bet I couldn't pass an exam
Loved my Lit class at Cal - flunked it
It's in head somewhere

1968 In the hallway at U.C.
Kitaj finds me in the hall with two big paintingsafter sitting-in for our graduate seminar.
"Best stuff I've seen on the west coast, Bill.
You know, the heroics of what you're doing was
accomplished by Kandinsky and Mondrian."By late '69 this makes sense to me too.
I get a camera and teach myself to walk and look and see.

1967 my home & painting studio on Mt Diablo
I'm 2nd year teaching at Berkeley High
Three of us do a 6 session "District Seminar" with Herb Kohl and Allan Kaprow
Planning 'new-life' for the Schools
They fire me for staging lunchtime "Happenings" in the courtyard
The Union! gets my job back
Kaprow in my studio
" ... Bill, best painting I've seen out here in the west. ..."
Loved That Seminar !

Thank You very much for the Visit !.
And again,
I hope that my sense of this life in the form of these pictures
turns out to be worth sharing.

!حياة. Dure! . 生命!.Maisha!.जीवन!. Liv!..Saol!
Kehidupan! زندگی! Lewe! ชีวิต! Bywydau! לייווז!
жизнь! Buhay! ζωή! Leben! Vi! .Cuộc sống!Vida! .Vita!
Got to ..K.E.E P .O N .T R U.C.K I.N' . . .

We chase a kid who bikes into our neighborhood

He's riding frantically fast - hit by a car at the corner - broken leg

I meet him later in the year, by accident, and apologize

This Book

the compulsion ta keep stuff in order

i duck, he duck, she duck, inside, outside, then, now...

i shoulda learned from Gabriel Faulkner Morrison Erdrich…

after 3 years editing i'm believin i toddl in the shoes...

will find out where I go

ThankYouNick+++. . .

lookin heated...

webguru smokes atmosphere

li'lwilliam

i believe Nancy and I are revolting vs our lived drive to do! do! do! do! . . .

we got a lot done...

we sit around a lot

books  phones  talk = quiet research

I know Szarkowski expresses what likely validates lots of stuff

he's a beauty

however the world I live is the social-antisocial

Bill,

At this moment, 2 millions Americans are contracting covid every day.

This is the second highest peak of covid infections.

People over the age of 70 are especially vulnerable.

The latest post-omicron variants are considered more virulent.

Within two months, it's expected that 1 in 3 Americans will have

had a (new) covid infection. 

Every covid infection and re-infection increases your chances of

contracting long covid. Long covid can affect almost all of the vital 

functions of the human body. 

The US government has ceased reporting covid data - because it

is criminally responsible for the failure to try to eliminate the disease.

Short term profits were chosen instead of an elimination policy.

This is post-political representation: i.e. they don't represent us.

I don't think you're going to get very far by 

replacing politics with questions of morality

when I studied in Rochester the fascism that was trickling down came 

from neoliberals, careerists, left postmodernists, garden variety jerks,

so-called feminists and queers ( word used in correct manner ) - who,

as members of the professional-managerial class, were unconcerned

about the people they step on, just making sure that the Reaganomics 

did not keep them out of the club

that's why I focus on the similarities and affinities between

traditional fascism and anti-liberal, anti-Marxist postmodern

theories that are anti-Enlightenment and anti-universality, 

wherein identity politics = cross-class collaboration in the

interest of upward mobility and anti-communism

this now includes: radical democracy, left populism, intersectionality, 

decoloniality, critical race theory, privilege theory, afro-pessimism, 

whiteness studies, and the like 

this is the missing link in today's discussion: how we went from

civil rights within democracy to anti-universal power politics

( a.k.a. postmodern nihilism )

by the way,

Kant defined his ethics-aesthetics as anti-social sociability

that explains why Szarkofsky … liked you so much 

FYI MJL

i am the same guy who wrote the words in my li'l book

You are the fellow who does more thinking research writing than anyone i can imagine

i have the normal inability to get lots of your stuff

i can often recognize certain Lights

You are lit

i read think by candlelight

we get to live this . . .

Amazing